I DON’T KNOW WHY i AM MAD, OR WHY I OVERREACT,
I JUST FEEL THAT, EVERYONE DOESN’T UNDERSTAND ME, AND THAT WHAT I’M GOING THROUGH ISN’T HARD. I FEEL THAT LIFE IS STRESSING OVER ME AND THAT I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING JUST RIGHT, BUT WITH THAT, PEOPLE COME AND POINT FINGERS, THEY YELL THAT I STOLE MONEY FROM MY OWN MOTHER, AND HOW WOULD I EVER DO THAT? NOT EVEN IF I WERE TO DIE FROM HUNGER WILL I DO THAT, GOD KNOWS MY HEART, HE KNOWS THAT I SEE MY MOTHER’S SACRIFICES, I CANNOT BARE TO STEAL SOMETHING FROM HER, AND COMING FROM MY OWN BROTHER, IT KILLS ME. ANOTHER THING …MY SISTER ALWAYS YELLS AT ME THAT I NEVER PAY THE RENT, WHEN I HAVE NO INCOME COMING IN RIGHT NOW, THEY SERIOUSLY DON’T KNOW HOW MUCH IT KILLS ME INSIDE AND HOW MUCH PAIN I HAVE TO TAKE IN, IM ONLY HUMAN, I FEEL LIKE I SHOULDN’T BE LIVING, AND THAT IF I DO DIE ONE DAY, NOONE WILL CRY BECAUSE NOONE LOVES ME FOR HOW OR WHO I AM. YES I AM FRUSTRATED AND YES I DO STRESS, BUT THAT DOESN’T GIVE YOU A REASON TO HURT MY FEELINGS
.:m3♥1if3.1iv3.2day:.
Dream as if you'll live forever, Live life as if you'll die today..
sister hatred
SHE HATES ME AND I HAVE NO SAY IN THAT, I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND HER. i HATE MYSELF TOO SOMETIMES FOR MANY REASONS. SHE SAYS IM IMMATURE, AND MAYBE I AM. SHE SAYS IM A LOSER, AND YOU KNOW ALL THE THINGS SHE SAYS TO ME MIGHT ME TRUE AND IM JUST INSECURE AND I TOTALLY LOVE HER FOR THAT. SHE MAKES ME FEEL EVEN MORE DOWN EVERYDAY. I LOVE HER FOR THAT.
I HOPE ONE DAY SHE IS STRONGER THAN I WOULD EVER BE.
why are you so mean
we always are told that life isn’t fair. I know it isn’t fair, but why is it cruel??
Especially when your own people are being such meannies!! C’mon!! I just don’t see why you have to be the way your are with me. I have always helped you in some way or another. I love you so much but hearing you say that for me you are living such a misery life, why don’t you just leave me alone?? And what I see is that you were too afraid to leave me alone, because since the start, I wanted to move alone and start being independent. When will I ever be independent if you can’t even bare to see me hang out with friends? I just don’t understand why everything I do makes you mad infuriated and stressing. All I want is for you to be happy and to stop saying that it’s my fault you are here. Go back to your own life if that’s what you want. Go and talk bad about me with my blood. Either way noone will ever love me for how or who I am.
I really want peace. I really want you to leave me alone for just a bit. If I decided to move apart to another school it was because of something right?? Let me be. Let me have freedom. My body is slowly dying and these tears won’t go away just yet.
I NEVER THOUGHT THAT SEEING YOU TONIGHT WILL MEAN THIS MUCH TO ME
BUT YOUR EYES HAVE GOT ME WICKED AND TONIGHT ALL THAT I SEE
IS OUR LOVE FLYING AWAY
I REPEAT TO YOU, STAY STAY HERE WITH ME
BUT NO WORDS WILL LET YOU HEAR
NOW I’M ALL ALONE AND I NEED YOU
I NEED YOU NOW MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD
BUT I’M AFRAID. I’M AFRAID THAT IF YOU DO COME, YOU CAME FOR NOTHING
BECAUSE ALL YOU LEFT BEHIND WERE TEARS , TEARS WHICH I HAVE DROWN FROM
real love huh
(Source: untoldst0ries)
I’m afraid, I have taken time for granted and it is all my fault, i realize that all i do is just for me but at the same time i have to help my mom out, i am afraid of being a failure, i have notice that somehow i do try to be a perfectionist when in reality on my God can be perfect! I have been ashamed of myself, I have spent time, money and all for nothing, i have been selfish! and i have all but myself to blame. I have a chance and i have taken it for granted!
Help me God please!
What is ahead of this
I can’t finish breathing..I feel the mist and I ran towards the fire, I am afraid. I don’t know what to smell or what to say.
All I know is that the future is near. It’s overwhelming. I can’t take so much pressure. I feel like everything around me is depending on me. If not, then the perfect girl won’t survive and everyone will be talking about her. Her world isn’t perfect, but she acts like it is. She wants to feel that she can be perfect, that is why she tries to be the perfectionist. But she also knows that life isn’t based on perfection, and that in order to survive, you need to know how to confront your own mistakes. Life isn’t perfect, but I try to be the good one, and the good girl that everyone wants to have. It’s hard because as you get older, life comes and hits you like a rock and you need to hold it like if it was a feather. I can’t do it anymore, my feelings will one day burst out and pop like a balloon;P
I’m lost, I can’t breathe or see what is ahead of me
Please save my last drop of blood inside this heart
I need you now
I need to know that you are here for me
Chase you around with this spirit
and cries of souls in the dark
STUNNING
(Source: luaraul, via champagne-gypsy)
